for example when I fail in my exam, I will focus at the subject that I weak. after that, my mark started increased slowly. But, I'm not a brilliant student at school. I try my best till now. But may Allah prevent me from ri'aq because of knowledge.
Then I started to think, Am I good enough to feel arrogant? how people think based on my attitude? how do I look in front of people? that's kind of question floating in my head. I feel like a jerk. or may be I am a jerk. I never really be grateful to ALLAH subahanallahtaala. maybe I said alhamdulillah with my mouth, but what about my heart. before I was here at IIUM, I had never feel like a muslim. maybe there were right about 'islam only on their name but not in their heart'. I was that kind of person before I came here.
I think only now that I know how to be grateful to ALLAH in all my heart.